To state the obvious, I haven’t posted in a while. I can pile on the excuses: major life transition, the holidays, a nasty cold, and (hopefully temporarily) losing all the pictures on my computer.
But I think the real reason I haven’t posted much since Thanksgiving is that I wasn’t sure what to write. I decided to leave my job, and it took a few weeks to process that my identity was about to completely change. I’ve spent the last five years absorbed in my work, and now it’s not there to define my hours and my life. With a blank canvas, it was hard to paint the first stroke.
At the same time, I was also stepping back and evaluating where the blog is at and where I want it to go. While I love making food porn, that wasn’t the main intention for this space. I wanted to create a place for me to explore and get to know myself better; find what feeds me as a person, how to preserve it in everyday life, so that I can really feeling I’m living life to the fullest.
But to be honest, I’ve gotten a little distracted by the food. I was paying more attention to the mechanics of posting a recipe than why it was important. I want to refocus to really hone in on that primary purpose. But I was unsure of where to start, and so I didn’t.
Advice comes in the most interesting places, and generally when you aren’t looking for it. At a book signing this week, I started chatting with the woman sitting next to me. It turns out she runs a wellness and health website that started as a blog. I told her where I was at, and her advice was to just keep creating, and the blog will settle where it’s supposed to. She told me that her blog and website went through many incarnations in the last year alone, but she wouldn’t have made progress unless she just wrote.
So I’m going to keep creating and playing, and you all get to be along for the ride. Enjoy! The content may shift around in the coming months, especially because I’m going through so many life changes, so please be patient.
Now you’re probably curious what those changes are. Here’s what is going on.
I quit my job at the end of last year, and I’m taking a few months off to regroup and figure out what I want to do next. I’m calling it a retirement because I’m putting my old job and life to rest, taking a break, and starting a fresh new chapter. Thankfully I’m financially able to do this, and it feels like a real gift. I’m not sure I’ve ever taken time off to do nothing before. I’m ecstatic.
Of course, I’m not really doing nothing. Tomorrow I’m beginning a one-month yoga teacher training here in San Francisco. I keep getting more and more excited. It’s something I’ve always wanted to do but was never sure how I was going to fit it into my life with a job. When I realized that a training was starting shortly after I entered retirement, I knew it was meant to be to do it now.
One of the perks of this training is that I get free unlimited yoga the month before and the month after the training. So for the past several weeks I’ve been taking yoga classes everyday (sometimes twice a day). I’ve also been reading several books that have delved deeper into the philosophy and background of yoga. Every day I fall more in love with yoga. I’m excited to devote the next several weeks to this.
And devote I will – 10 hours a day, 6 days a week, for 4 weeks. I’m going to try to write while I’m in the training, but know that with this intense schedule I may not be able to post as much as I’d like. So hang tight. Namaste.